Goodbye

2008.
Tomorrow is new year's eve, where the haaalllleee did the year go?!?

let's recap.

January. Started off the new year with a bang, was hooking up with Jared (ewwww) and everything was cool de la.
February. Started SMC, quickly realized I was not ready for school haha. Jared and Lauren got together, we stopped being friends.
March. Nothing too exciting, just school and shiiit.
April. Turned 19, had a bday party, fun ensues.
May. Vegas for Nikki's bday (epic puke on the strip), ready for summer :) Met Richard, became bff's.
June. Summer loving, going out, beer pong, living it up and not giving a damn.
July. 4th of July was nice, same as june, still dgafing.
August. Started thinking about school, started seeing Dan (aka my dream come true haha).
September. School started, getting more serious with Dan (meeting his family and friends, etc..) mom turned 49.
October. Halloween!!
November. Struggeling to focus on school (mostly math), became a girlfriend.
December. Just came back from Christmas in Vegas!

I have to close tomorrow night, I'll probably be out by like 10:30 or 11, which sucks so hard I cannot even explain. Then I have to work at 11am on new years day, my job is fucking ridiculous sometimes. But I am quite excited to ring in the new year. It's always been my favorite 'holiday' or whatever you wanna call it. It's like starting with a clean slate. I've never made any resolutions but maybe I should this year. Maybe to stop being so repressed? That's pretty much the biggest realization I've had in 2008, that I hold too much in.. Anyhoo, see ya next year :)

zzzzz

So I'm watching Britney Spears: For the Record and it just pains me to see all this dancing because I'm not doing it. I really need to get back into a studio or something and stop being lazy because I miss it so much. And as lame as it sounds, Britney said something like "Everything goes away when I start dancing" and other cliche' things like that, but it's so forreaaaal, like that's how I feel too!!! Ughh anyways..

I had the weirdest morning and I can't shake it off. How did I only blackout the last 15 minutes of my night?? Weiiird.

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I wish I was confident enough to not be a jealous person but ughhh some shit just really bothers me and I'd probably be better off NOT knowing.

I feel like I've completely let my guard down in the past three months and have just gotten so naive, some of the time it feels really good and other times I'm thinking to myself, "wtf am I doin?" I think it's time for me to put those walls back up haha in other words:

no matter how it starts.

So I'm writing an essay about a life changing moment that's not too cliche'd, and I chose the moment when I went to Italy. Which got me thinking about Hawaii because that was a great vacation, which got me listening to House of Cards by Radiohead, which reminded me of how fucking great this year has been. I know it's not over yet, and who knows, everything can turn to shit from here, but I am in love with 2008, I don't know if proper words can explain.

I went out and did things more than ever, I've pushed myself harder, and I think I know what I want to be later in life. I've met amazing people, which led to good times..... damn I just realized how cheesy and nostalgic this is getting....


anyways I just wanted go express my feelings of happiness and gratitude towards life and I hope I never come down from cloud nine.

it's nearly midnight

and all i waaaannttt is to beee yourrr houusseewiiiifffeeeeee.

oh geeez

Last night I drove out to Canyon Lake and today I went wakeboarding for the first time (and I got up!!) and I got to drive the boat really fast! and Ohh man it was such an exciting/tiring day. I can't get over how spontaneous and fun this year has been I just lovvveee liiifeee...


except I miss Dan even though he's only in the orange county :[

Note to self:

I do not mix in well with a group full of medical students and lawyers in their mid 20's.

thank god there was a keg.

can't keep my hand out the cookie jar.

Damn, summer '08 has been too good to me.
Lots of adventures, some money making, a little vacation to palm springs, and what better way to end it then with a toga party.

I'm gonna miss it, but I'm kind of excited to see what's next to come!!!

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Comic Con was pretty effin sweet.

a text can't exist until it can be read.

THE DIVING BELL AND THE BUTTERFLY is such an amazing movie I cannot even wrap my head around it. It's heartbreaking but uplifting at the same time. Just watch it.



The Way We Were is another one I watched recently, also good.

I just wanna get high like you.

Fourth of July was filled with it's usual beer pong madness and I tried lighting some fireworks but I'm a noob and they sucked. I played a lot of rock band then took some shots of tequila and called it a night.

I signed up for school finally and now I need to take my car to the shop cuz it makes this rattling noise sometimes and I don't wanna blow up while driving.

Umm nothing much else exciting except when I went to Disneyland on Thursday I watched Fantasmic for the first time and had a photoshoot with Mickey and Minnie and it was soo glorious.

rare & beautiful thing.

My horoscopes have been saying that my dreams are dropping hints of what is yet to come... so this should be interesting, if my horoscopes are right.

Things that I know are coming up:
-The Wackness tomorrow night at the Arclight.
-BDay party and probably seeing old friends on Friday.
-Then probably more crazy adventures for the rest of the weekend.

it's so damn hot.

I had to sleep naked on top of my sheets for the past 7 hours... Not to mention I just woke up and it's 1:51 in the fucking afternoon hahaha.

Last night was soo intense, went to a party in harbor city and got too drunk too fast then wanted to fall asleep by 3:30 but ended up not leaving til 5:30 because my driver was drunk too and then of course a fight broke out, ohhh mannn it was soo much fun though, but now I'm hung over and sweaty and have to work in an hour :[

Well that all depends...

On what you qualify as friends.

Hurricane Harbor kicked off the summer, I even got sunburnt!
Laker game tonight in Boston, not to be negative but the Celtics are for sure takin the playoffs, but it's ok, I just hope there are no riots in LA haha.

My weekend was more than good, but really tiring. I loveeee the sun :)

Date with the night.

I don't think I've slept before 4am in the past week.

can I get a whoop whoop.

It's summer and Pepper came home after missing for two weeks and The Lakers are playing in LA tonight so hopefully we can turn these playoffs around!!

Vida esta Buena!

I live life like the captain of a sinking ship.

Ok so I had the weirdest dream last night and I'm going to describe it the best way I can.

First it was myself, lauren, emma, mcatee, stef and a few other random people at this house. Me stef, lauren, and mcatee were in a room picking up our old yearbooks and looking through them while emma was in the other room trying to do something. and mcatee says "emma's pretty cool" then i go "I fucking hate that bitch" (Cuz i really do) and lauren's like "be nice wah wah wah" so i'm looking at my old yearbooks and in each one i wrote: "stage 1" then whatever stage I was going through that time.
Anyways, then me stef and mcatee gather all the books up and take them to another room and on the way to the other room there's this guy sleeping and apparently we're supposed to go to disneyland but he's like let me take a nap first blah blah.

All of the sudden I'm on this medieval ship. I forget which country we're from (I didn't recognize anyone else on the ship), but we were on our way to meet up with another ship from France.

We went up and down these crazy mountains to meet them and then we did and talked blah blah then came back, then realized wait, we should go back and follow back behind them. So we went back and on the way were these crazy polar bears trying to attack us but we dodged them all crazy. So the french were on their way to our country (wherever that was) and we followed behind them. Back in our country we lived in this crazy royal house like in Marie Antoinette but half the people were dressed accordingly and others were dressed like they were from 2008, it was weird. I got in a quick swordfight with the captain of the french ship, but I cut my arm, so he went on to swordfight (playfully I guess) with the captain of my ship (who i later found out was my dad?).
I went inside the house and there were these girls and one of them was having their period and I had to call my maid to help her who was pissed and hated her job. I went upstairs and this guy from the other ship was trying to get inside the bathroom with another girl and some other weird shit, (i think he was the guy from the chronicals of narnia: prince caspian?)So i tried cleaning off my cut on my arm and out of no where a cop appears and he's wearing a white polo with black pants like an HB cop. And we see a man crawl out of the corner drenched and bleeding.
The man was the french captain and he said that when he was swordfighting with my captain, he had said that "if i accidentally get hurt I'm going to kill you." So me and the cop call for help and the french captain's family comes running up and hugging me all scared and then my phone rang and I woke up.

SO FUCKING CRAZY. someone interpret it for me.

why do i do this to myself...

Here I am at 2:03am on page 2 of this research essay that needs to be 8 pages. Clueless is on and talking to this boy is distracting.


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come all you weary.

soooo fucking amazing last night.

Memorial Weekend.

Vegas is an adventure every single time.